By the grace of God,

Thoughts,

I think as we grow older, we get sadder.
Not because we choose to be unhappy, not because we choose to allow everything to make us sad.
But because as we grow older, we know more things, we experience more things, we see more things, and we feel more things.

We can never go back to the days where we are innocent, happy, living life.
Now, we are all just trying to get by everyday the best we can and hoping someday we will start feeling alive again.

There are a lot of things that can change a person.
Friends, relationship, family, school, food, puberty, anything you can think of that made you who you are today.
Some change you for the better,
some just completely crash you and you know when you are okay again, you will never be the same anymore.

Lately, I found myself thinking a lot about my life.
I thought about what I want to be in my future.
I thought about the friendship I thought was unbreakable.
I thought about the mistakes I made in my life thus far,
I thought about the relationship I have now and how it was my safe haven when things went wrong,
I thought my past 18 years of my life,

And I realize, the things that used to make me really happy don'y anymore.
I spend more time thinking that just relaxing.
I spend more time staying awake then sleeping just to get things done,
I spend more time noticing the things in the society that made me sad,
I spend more time telling myself everything is going to be okay.
I spend more time trying to find more time.
I spend more time trying to feel and find the happiness or foolishness I once had,
But I realize I can never get it back anymore.

But I realize too above all else, I still have my family, boyfriend, my girls, God.
Above all else, I still have all these people who love me and believe me and stick with me when times are rough,
And that made everything okay,
Because I don't need a large group number of friends, I just need few true friends.
I don't even know if this is making sense or I am blabbering rubbish, but that shall be it for now, its time to get back on my law essay,

F O U R T H //

Celebrated fourth monthsary with my boy yesterday (▰˘◡˘▰)
But of course the day started off really bad...................................

(1) I had 8 am lessons
(2) I had to wake up at 6.30am even before the sun is up
(3) I was late for freaking one hour because of the stupid jam which happen 2 bus stops away from NP's bus stop.
(4) It was the first lesson for the module.

But I'm happy everything after that was a blast!! hehehehe
So I met up with my boy after school and head off to celebrate the day :)
We wander around @ Holland Village to satisfy his churros craving but somehow Churiosity did not open despite us being there after their supposedly opening time which was 2pm.

Instead, we went to have llao llao instead HAHAHAHAH.

Then we watch a movie which was really really good and had our dinner at tian tian huo guo; 天天火锅. (Which I think we are never ever going to go back again)
Location: Bugis
Price: $22 per person (no GST and extra charges)

Although the food was alright, your company made it much much much much much better hehe. .
Thank you for the past four months full of laughter, tears, anger, love, patience, understanding and more love.
Sometimes I stare at you and I realize, I am crazily and madly and deeply in love with you.
I know you are reading this, I love you.

LAST 18TH BDAY Ü

Finally, the last girl to 18th in our group.

Happy birthday Shi Shan （ミ￣ー￣ミ）

We celebrated her birthday by eating @ our work place, Slappy Cakes.

Pancakes always makes things better especially those kind where you get to cook yourself :P

But it was so awkward because we were the last customers that night.

The mickey mouse Lau drew, some people are just good at drawing, at the some people is clearly not me HAAHAHAHAH.

That night was a blast, its been so long since we all went out to have a good meal :)
It was definitely one of the happy nights in the midst of all our crazy workload.
Happy legal Shi Shan ◎[▪‿▪]◎

I L L U M I • R U N

Yes yes yes, I went for my first ever illumi run this year and it was so much fun!
But the journey getting there was a mess, but thankfully everything after that was a blast :)

Before run picture with my boy ●‿●

With my girls ＼（＾○＾）人（＾○＾）／

ヽ(〃＾▽＾〃)ﾉ

Really love all these pictures of us glowing Ü

After the run :)

The run was really a fun and memorable experience, the only things I felt was a pity was that by the time we got to the last two splash zones, there was no more paint left and the colors had to be pink and red (idk what is it) which was such a pity.

But thank god we somehow still manage to get those colors on our shirt, but of course we had to "squeeze" to the front line to get them :P

The run was really a worth going run and I definitely am open to more of such runs in the future :)

Not to mention the after party was fun as well, but it drained me out.
I guess I'm really getting old and its time I get back to my running routine HAHAHAHAHA.

It's the most beautiful time of the year,

Its the time of the year again, this Christmas its going to be a good one.
Anyway, congrats to everyone and myself included for surviving 2014 till now, its almost over, hang on.

Sorry I haven't been updating this space of mine much, school assignments have been killing me but its okay, I can do it, I will work hard and make it up for my grades.
There isn't a lot of words to say so I will post up visuals from the last post till now (warning its mostly pictures of food and people I love)