Day 13

So much things going through my mind everyday.
I feel like I am just living everyday to get by.
I have so much in my mind but I can't say it out.
Its not that I don't want to share, its because I can't.

When one bad thing happen, everything else always have a way of falling apart.
I'm so tired of trying to explain myself every time people misunderstand me.
I'm so tired of me honestly,
Is that why people always leave me?

I will never know because I will never get to find out.
Am I complicating things in my mind as usual or is things really this complicated?
Why does every single thing now have to be so hard,
I feel so tired, everything is taking so much out of me.

And I am still a fat piece of shit.
Sigh, its 2015, get yourself together Amelia, there is no more time left.